Life has been better the last few months.
Thought about it.
Tempted to take a back seat and let it roll away like any good old times.
There was a saying… good times always come to an end.
I have decided to take this good O days and to make it even more so memorable.
Working harder, getting hit by more pain and to gain so much more at the end of the day. Always out, looking for a fight. Looking for ways to make the lives of people and of myself even better.
I may face even more disappointment, I may face rejection but all of this are part and parcel of gaining that much more. The pros outweighs the losses.
And yes I think I may have found that secret formula that I am sharing with you.
You may not believe me. Theres a chance that I may suffer a burn out. Yes that may be true, but let me assure you, burn out is good because at least I can call it my own. Like suffering war scars. I have undergone burn outs before but it is the reckoning, the ability to conquer it along with the bitterness that follows which makes me strive to become who I want to become. I dont want to be a sad miserable person, always blaming people around me because they are living a great life and not me? I have accepted my own short comings. I am not good enough AND SO I NEED TO BE BETTER!
This journey that I have taken is along an unbeaten track. A journey that no other have taken. I have decided to call it my own and the more pain that I have conquered, the richer the memories. As I push the frontier of my self development. As I pursue the life of excellence, I will one day achieve something that I can call my own. Something that my daughter can be proud of.
I am a soldier, a father and a husband, fighting for a singular cause. A cause that my family can rejoice in my life that I have left behind. No matter how long or short my time is on this land, at least I know i have lived my life responsibly and i have done my best.
Carpe diem! Seize the day!